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My life will forever be changed because of the events that took place between 2018-19. In January 2018, I was raped by someone while...
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- Jan 12
- 1 min
Unrealistic Expectations
For him to ask you how you're doing. To visit the home you've put your heart into. To ask to hang out. To ask about your life. Your...
- Jan 2
- 2 min
There's a lot that no one knows about me.
Which is on purpose. I try very hard to be a kind person, but it's really a facade so I feel safe and protected at a distance. There's a...
- Jan 2
- 3 min
Let me tell you about my boyfriend.
I was divorced for almost a year when he interviewed me for a job. When I accepted the offer, I was the only American with a team of 6...
- Aug 29, 2022
- 1 min
There are two of me.
There's the one who survived a traumatic event. ...She still emails other survivors. ....She works with the police. ...She does therapy...
- Aug 28, 2022
- 1 min
When plans don't go as planned.
I spiral. I feel like I did when my high school boyfriend told me he had cheated. I feel like I did when my ex husband said goodbye in...
- Aug 26, 2022
- 1 min
I have me.
When I have no one else, I have me. When I lose everything, I have me. When I’m lost or scared or stuck, I have me. When people say they...
- Aug 13, 2022
- 2 min
The shoes
When I moved back home, I barely had money in my bank account. I had less than $200 available at any given time. I wasn't mentally or...
- Aug 13, 2022
- 1 min
To fall in love
Isn't falling, is it? It's magnetism. You're drawn together. It's an equal push and pull. With acceptance and love. Full of safety and...
- Aug 2, 2022
- 1 min
What I missed
I got married. Drove 8hr to Nashville the next day. Flew for our honeymoon the day after that. Flew back six days later. Changed my last...
- Aug 1, 2022
- 1 min
What it comes down to.
I don’t want my family to think I didn’t choose them. Just like my dad didn’t choose me. I don’t want them to think I don’t love them...
- Jul 31, 2022
- 1 min
This pattern I know
When I start hating myself and who I am. I deep clean. I need to organize. I make piles of items I want to throw away or donate. I have...
- Jul 31, 2022
- 1 min
What does 3 years look like?
I'm making choices to shape my future, not out of survival. I've chosen a job that makes me happier and fits my strengths better. I don't...
- Jul 31, 2022
- 1 min
I'm scared
To wear dark lipstick. To go public on Instagram. To be found. To wear bold dresses. To get married. Have kids. Travel alone. Lead my...
- Jul 27, 2022
- 1 min
What you value
My dad and his girlfriend are taking a break. "I don't want to give up my time. If I go to dinner with her after work then I won't get...
- Jul 27, 2022
- 1 min
I feel change
In the warm summer air. As it brushes my hair and burns my chest. I'm not good with change. Or goodbyes. Or forced hellos even. Our...
- Mar 21, 2022
- 1 min
A Game of Chess
I stared at the board. Too scared to place the first piece. Too scared to lose. Not knowing which move first. Nothing happened. I hoped...
- Mar 21, 2022
- 1 min
It’s when I say goodbye.
When do I typically feel the most sad? It’s when I say goodbye. It’s ending a conversation. Leaving the dinner or party. Kissing you at...
- Mar 17, 2022
- 1 min
The distance
I don’t know if I can do it. I already travel. For work. And life. And then for a relationship. How do I do it all without losing myself?
- Jan 17, 2022
- 1 min
If we both believed
the lies she said, we weren’t meant for each other. She filled our heads with stories about each other. And we believed them. He believed...
- Jan 14, 2022
- 1 min
Your Name
I had it until a month ago. I only changed it two weeks before we had dinner. Three years since we saw each other. Almost the same amount...
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