A Mix of Writings

Things you should know before reading my content

My life will forever be changed because of the events that took place between 2018-19. In January 2018, I was raped by someone while...

What it comes down to.

I don’t want my family to think I didn’t choose them. Just like my dad didn’t choose me. I don’t want them to think I don’t love them...

This pattern I know

When I start hating myself and who I am. I deep clean. I need to organize. I make piles of items I want to throw away or donate. I have...

What does 3 years look like?

I'm making choices to shape my future, not out of survival. I've chosen a job that makes me happier and fits my strengths better. I don't...

I'm scared

To wear dark lipstick. To go public on Instagram. To be found. To wear bold dresses. To get married. Have kids. Travel alone. Lead my...

What you value

My dad and his girlfriend are taking a break. "I don't want to give up my time. If I go to dinner with her after work then I won't get...

I feel change

In the warm summer air. As it brushes my hair and burns my chest. I'm not good with change. Or goodbyes. Or forced hellos even. Our...

A Game of Chess

I stared at the board. Too scared to place the first piece. Too scared to lose. Not knowing which move first. Nothing happened. I hoped...

It’s when I say goodbye.

When do I typically feel the most sad? It’s when I say goodbye. It’s ending a conversation. Leaving the dinner or party. Kissing you at...