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|| A Pause ||

Updated: Feb 20, 2020

There’s a pause in meditation. That moment in between breathing in and out. That silence you bring your attention to before you take in a new breath.


That pause has lasted nine months.


It has been a pause between my old life and new.


I’ve felt like I’ve been hidden away healing in the gap between my lives.


In the town that I was built in. Remembering who I was.

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