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Am I doing enough?

Updated: Dec 7, 2020

My therapist looked at me.


"Am I healing properly? Am I doing enough to heal?"


"Hallie, you are doing more than all of my clients combined. You're doing too much. I actually would advise you to take a step back."


I couldn't see myself.


I had that familiar pressure that I wasn't enough.


I was trying anything and everything to feel normal again.


Using essential oils.


Doing a diet cleanse.


Intermittent fasting.


Seeing a therapist twice a week.


Exercising.


Reading.


Meditating.


Journalling.


Working part-time.


Interviewing for jobs.


Writing my book proposal.


Spending time with friends.



I finally hit a breaking point.


I had an argument with someone I cared about.


I was depressed and unhappy about an interview.


I felt emotionally unstable from a cleanse I was trying.


I got my period...which never helps.


I cried for days.


I felt a loss of control.


I had spiraled.


After that conversation with my therapist...


I avoided freelance for a couple of weeks.


I canceled plans with friends.


Stared out a window.


Read a fiction book.


Laid in bed.


Journaled.


I realized how grateful I am to have people that can help me gain clarity and balance when I'm not in a place to do so. I'm grateful for people who are honest with what they see.

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