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I felt the shift

When you smirked from across the table.


To when you'd look away.

You shared your heart.


And then hesitated... to share your life.


You saw me cry and get mad.

I felt the distance, the walls.


Without reason or understanding.


The kind of shift you can't fight.


The acceptance that it will never be what you wanted.

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