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I'm not ready...

To write my book.


To be willing to fight for a relationship like I did with my ex.


To let go of my past.


But I am ready to...


Stop defending him.


Stop letting my depression get the best of me.


Let go a little bit and look more forward to the future.


To accept the good things happening instead of thinking I don't deserve them.

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There's one that survived a cult. She still emails other survivors. The ones who have lost themselves or others. She works with the police. She documents what happens and works on her book. She does t

I spiral. I feel like I did when David told me he had cheated. I feel like I did when Michael said goodbye in the parking lot of San Jose. Or when he left me in the elevator. I feel it rush in my body

I buy kayaks. Bake brownies. Reupholster my chairs. I make spreadsheets and book hotels. I write out grocery lists and buy new clothes. I want everything to be right and ready. That's who I am.