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I rode the wave

I rode the wave.


Of fear.


Anger.


Contentment.


Angst.


Sadness.


Anticipation.


Anger.


I rode the wave.


Crashing against the shore.


Over and over.


I watched as my family learned how to deal with the pandemic and social distancing. I watched their emotions and opinions heighten and shift. I watched as my PTSD was triggered, as my anxiety increased, and my feeling of freedom dwindled. Uncertain times, uncertain opinions, and uncertain feelings for the future.

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