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I still can't...

Updated: May 17, 2020

Listen to our favorite artists


Or crave movies like I used to.


I had to return my new hangers because they reminded me of our closet.


I still have our photos and your letters.


I can't watch YouTube videos at night


Or eat Thai food.




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