It is.

Updated: Feb 13, 2021

"That sounds emotionally exhausting."

"It is. I'm tired all the time," I replied.

But I'm farther now than I've ever been.

More myself now than I've ever been.

I've been working on my book once a week with my ghostwriter.

Meeting with my therapist twice a week and focusing on trauma-healing exercises.

Working with my publisher to publish my flashcards internationally.

Learning to be a girlfriend. Learning to balance a relationship. Feeling the pain from being close and far away.

Writing. Planning. Dreaming.

Falling asleep on the couch.

Eating lots of biscuits, caramel from a jar, and takeout sushi.

Taking lots of baths. Lots of essential oils and face masks.

Buying things I probably don't need.

Journaling pages and pages.

But creating a life I love and moving forward into it.

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