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Maybe my lists are wrong

Updated: Nov 11, 2020

I have several lists.

- Furniture for my future apartment

- Clothes I want

- Bucket lists for various cities

- To do's

- This is even a list....


But more importantly, I have a list for the perfect job and my idea of the perfect partner.


But maybe they're wrong.


I made it to the final round for my dream job. It checked all the boxes and then some. But when I got to the final interview, I hoped that I didn't get it.


Instead, I took a job that paid less, was a role I swore I would never do again and requires an hour commute.


And I couldn't ask for anything better.


So maybe my lists are wrong.

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