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That seems natural

Updated: Mar 11, 2020

I asked a dear friend to take new headshots for me.


I needed them for my job search.


I leaned against the brick wall and crossed my arms, stressed about having to force a pose.


"That seems really natural," she said.


And it was.


You can learn a lot about someone by watching their body language.


In that moment, I chose to take my headshots as I was.


Unsure.

Protective.

Uptight.

Telling myself, "It's going to be okay."

Sad and happy at the same time.


I didn't want photos that showed that everything was okay.


Because it wasn't.


I wanted photos that showed vulnerability, insecurity, and hope.

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