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Then what?

File bankruptcy.


Check.


Get a job.


Check.


Get an apartment.


Check.


Get a therapist.


Check.


Change my last name.


Check.


Get a raise.


Check.


But what happens when the checkboxes run out?


I had steps. I had clear goals to help me recover and heal.


But what happens when they're done?


Then what?


When no one is watching? When you've done all the right things?


When you can start living your life beyond those boxes?


Then what?

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