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This pattern I know

When I start hating myself and who I am.


I deep clean.


I need to organize.


I make piles of items I want to throw away or donate.


I have too much.


I buy things.


Groceries that will go to waste. Clothes I don't need. Decor to fill my apartment.


I make lofty goals that won't last.

Exercise classes. Diets. Journaling prompts.


I set up myself up for failure so deserve the hate I have.

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