When I start hating myself and who I am.
I deep clean.
I need to organize.
I make piles of items I want to throw away or donate.
I have too much.
I buy things.
Groceries that will go to waste. Clothes I don't need. Decor to fill my apartment.
I make lofty goals that won't last.
Exercise classes. Diets. Journaling prompts.
I set myself up for failure so deserve the hate I have.