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What it comes down to.

Updated: Aug 22

I don’t want my family to think I didn’t choose them.


Just like my dad didn’t choose me.


I don’t want them to think I don’t love them enough to stay in Valpo.


I don’t want them to think they don’t matter.


Or that I don’t want to spend every minute with them.


I don’t want to abandon them.


Or for the distance to be so long, they abandon me.

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