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What I missed

Updated: Aug 13

I got married.


Drove 8hr to Nashville the next day.


Flew for our honeymoon the day after that.


Flew back six days later.


Changed my last name two days after that.


Started a new job and career the day after that.


I remember starting my job in a new city with a new name and thinking “They’ll never know who I was. They’ll only know me by this name and who I am now.”


They’ll know me as someone who lived in Nashville.


They’ll only know me as married.


They’ll only know me as an Account Manager.


But wow what they’ve missed.


What I missed.

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