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Am I normal?

Updated: May 17, 2020

I've decided to stop asking that question.


I can't leave it to other people to determine if I'm healed.


It's impossible for them to know.


I have to seek that answer within myself.


I understand that I am far from someone's typical normal. But am I me? Am I my normal? After almost a year, I can finally say the answer is mostly yes.

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