Apr 251 min10 yearsIt's been 10 years since we kissed. 7 since we were married. 3 since we've been divorced. How many lives have we lived?
Mar 251 minToo much informationMy mom texted me. "Do you know someone called Brandy? She asked how things with your boyfriend are going." My mom wrote. My mom has been...
Mar 221 minA Game of ChessI stared at the board. Too scared to place the first piece. Too scared to lose. Not knowing which move first. Nothing happened. I hoped...
Mar 221 minIt’s when I say goodbye.When do I typically feel the most sad? It’s when I say goodbye. It’s ending a conversation. Leaving the dinner or party. Kissing you at...
Mar 181 minThe distanceI don’t know if I can do I already travel. For work. And life. And then for a relationship. How do I do it all without losing myself?
Jan 171 minIf we both believedthe lies she said, we weren’t meant for each other. She filled our heads with stories about each other. And we believed them. He believed...
Jan 151 minYour NameI had it until a month ago. I only changed it two weeks before we had dinner. Three years since we saw each other. Almost the same amount...
Jan 121 minI’m the same.My posture. Hair. Weight. Forgetfulness. Humor. I have the same laptop. Phone. Glasses. But everything is different.
Jan 31 minExpression. Painting. Talking. Journaling. Yoga. Running. Stretching. Dance. Movement. We fill our mind and body with so many senses and...
Jan 31 minWhat is depression to me?Letting the dishes sit for days. Craving to be alone more and more. Hating myself. Forgetting the stove is on. Not wanting to eat. Or...
Nov 15, 20211 minYou need to pray hard about thisWhat's your long-term plan with this? Are you moving there? Is he moving there? Is he a Christian? I love this for you. You're really...
Nov 15, 20211 minIs it worth it?"The trip was perfect," I told my therapist. It was even better than I could imagine. We navigated the chaos of London together. We took...
Nov 15, 20211 minI want more timeTo sleep Think Do nothing Plan Get my life in order Create Build a business Rest Waste Heal Even when I get time, I still want more. When...
Sep 1, 20211 minThen I'm back. A cool breeze brushes my face on my morning run. Then I'm back in Tenessee. Going on my morning run near our apartment. I feel the same...
Sep 1, 20211 minIt's too good to be true. To have these moments. Leave a self-defense class. More and more confident each week. Wearing my nice yoga pants. Drive to my mom's to...
Sep 1, 20211 minHow do I knowThat I'm me? I feel creative I want to write Or cook Or make jokes Or learn I'm not exhausted, obsessive, or anxious That's how I...
Jul 11, 20211 minHe knowsWhen I write about her, I'm not scared. I know I'm safe in my own home. I don't think she'd even try to find me. But him? Terrified. I...
Jul 11, 20211 minThen what? File bankruptcy. Check. Get a job. Check. Get an apartment. Check. Get a therapist. Check. Change my last name. Check. Get a raise....
Jul 11, 20211 minHarderIt was a year ago. I remember this path I walked. I walked it often. I read my book, watched the deer play, and circled the park at dusk....
Jul 11, 20211 minI questionWhen I spend a lot of time working on my book, it happens. I start questioning my sanity. I sit there, paralyzed...panicking. Wanting to...
Jun 24, 20211 minI miss youI miss the feeling of your beard against my fingers. Your smile in the morning when you wake up. Drinking coffee with you in a foreign...
Jun 24, 20211 minI was strongerBut the battles got bigger. I was 13. I stood up for myself. I fought my dad. I had boundaries. My own voice. Opinions. Courage. Moxie. I...
Apr 4, 20211 minBeginningWith windows open, letting in the warm Spring air. A mug of hot water, honey, and whiskey. Wrapped in a blanket as I pour out my heart on...
Mar 23, 20211 minWishingSometimes the pain from my past drowns me. I feel like I'm held underwater, unable to get air. I'm reminded of the choices I made. My...