What I missed
I got married. Drove 8hr to Nashville the next day. Flew for our honeymoon the day after that. Flew back six days later. Changed my last...
Starting Life Again
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- Aug 1
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What I comes down to.
Is that I don’t want my family to think I didn’t choose them. Just like my dad didn’t choose me. I don’t want them to think I don’t love...
- Jul 31
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This pattern I know
When I start hating myself and who I am. I deep clean. I need to organize. I make piles of items I want to throw away or donate. I have...
- Jul 31
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What does 3 years look like?
I'm making choices to shape my future, not out of survival. I've chosen a job that makes me happier and fits my strengths better. I don't...
- Jul 31
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I'm scared
To wear dark lipstick. To go public on Instagram. To be found. To wear bold dresses. To get married. Have kids. Travel alone. Lead my...
- Jul 28
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What you value
My dad and his girlfriend are taking a break. "I don't want to give up my time. If I go to dinner with her after work then I won't get...
- Jul 27
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I feel change
In the warm summer air. As it brushes my hair and burns my chest. I'm not good with change. Or goodbyes. Or forced hellos even. Our...
- Apr 24
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10 years
It's been 10 years since we kissed. 7 since we were married. 3 since we've been divorced. How many lives have we lived?
- Mar 21
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A Game of Chess
I stared at the board. Too scared to place the first piece. Too scared to lose. Not knowing which move first. Nothing happened. I hoped...
- Mar 21
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It’s when I say goodbye.
When do I typically feel the most sad? It’s when I say goodbye. It’s ending a conversation. Leaving the dinner or party. Kissing you at...
- Mar 17
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The distance
I don’t know if I can do I already travel. For work. And life. And then for a relationship. How do I do it all without losing myself?
- Jan 17
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If we both believed
the lies she said, we weren’t meant for each other. She filled our heads with stories about each other. And we believed them. He believed...
- Jan 14
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Your Name
I had it until a month ago. I only changed it two weeks before we had dinner. Three years since we saw each other. Almost the same amount...
- Jan 12
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I’m the same.
My posture. Hair. Weight. Forgetfulness. Humor. I have the same laptop. Phone. Glasses. But everything is different.
- Jan 2
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Expression.
Painting. Talking. Journaling. Yoga. Running. Stretching. Dance. Movement. We fill our mind and body with so many senses and...
- Jan 2
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What is depression to me?
Letting the dishes sit for days. Craving to be alone more and more. Hating myself. Forgetting the stove is on. Not wanting to eat. Or...
- Nov 14, 2021
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You need to pray hard about this
What's your long-term plan with this? Are you moving there? Is he moving there? Is he a Christian? I love this for you. You're really...
- Nov 14, 2021
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Is it worth it?
"The trip was perfect," I told my therapist. It was even better than I could imagine. We navigated the chaos of London together. We took...
- Nov 14, 2021
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I want more time
To sleep Think Do nothing Plan Get my life in order Create Build a business Rest Waste Heal Even when I get time, I still want more. When...
- Sep 1, 2021
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Then I'm back.
A cool breeze brushes my face on my morning run. Then I'm back in Tenessee. Going on my morning run near our apartment. I feel the same...
- Sep 1, 2021
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It's too good to be true.
To have these moments. Leave a self-defense class. More and more confident each week. Wearing my nice yoga pants. Drive to my mom's to...
- Sep 1, 2021
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How do I know
That I'm me? I feel creative I want to write Or cook Or make jokes Or learn I'm not exhausted, obsessive, or anxious That's how I...
- Jul 11, 2021
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He knows
When I write about her, I'm not scared. I know I'm safe in my own home. I don't think she'd even try to find me. But him? Terrified. I...
- Jul 10, 2021
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Then what?
File bankruptcy. Check. Get a job. Check. Get an apartment. Check. Get a therapist. Check. Change my last name. Check. Get a raise....