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Is it normal to cry after getting a raise?


Not out of happiness, but because you feel you don't deserve it?


You're reminded of the time you fell asleep on the couch working at 4pm.


Or the time you avoided that client email for three days.


Or the time you had depression and couldn't leave your bed for two weeks when you first moved back home.


Or the fact that you never told your boss you were going through bankruptcy.


Or the secrets from your past.


Or that your company crumbled under you.


Or that you take breaks throughout the day and work late into the evening.


Is it normal to have a pattern of feeling guilty when you're blessed with something so good?

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