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What Have I Gained?

Updated: Dec 7, 2020

Yes, I've lost a lot.


My marriage.


Friends.


My belongings.


My company.


My financial security.



But in that loss, what have I gained?


Getting pedicures with my best friend from high school


Taking my niece to her dance recital


Taking a photo with my brothers for the first time in five years


Writing pages of journal entries in the sunshine


New friends that feel like family


A therapist and someone who listens to me


Closure to past relationships


A renewed relationship with my family after 10 years


Looking at hometown through a new lens


Forced time to think


Having my sister-in-law pray for me at the alter of my family's church


Having my younger brother cook dinner for me and take me on dates


Exercising at the gym with friends


Worshiping next to my mom


Getting coffee with friends on Friday morning


A chance to create something new

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