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“When did his voice come back into your head?”

Updated: Feb 27, 2020

My therapist's question echoed in my memory as I ran hot water in the tub.


I sat on her office couch. My chin was resting on my hand and my elbow on my knee.

I looked down at the ground.


When did his voice come back?


"When I got turned down from another job," I replied.


When I realized that everything was going to take longer than I hoped.


“Maybe I’m not good enough.”

“Maybe I’m not capable of a job yet.”

"Why is this taking so long?”

"You're still living at home?"

“You’re not doing enough.”

“You just need to push harder.”

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